forgive me for my past harsh post.
varun doesn't deserve the back biting. pain is inevitable.
neruda, eloquently sums up his saddest lines... and i whine... perhaos, there is beauty in pain. perhaps tears do make you see better... and perhaps, i, unlike the great poet fail to realize...
four years has been a long time, building a relationship on fantasies, on my part has been wrong... tonight, when i see it all fall apart, i have no1 to blame, but myself. relationships are a two way deal... dreams need to be reciprocated and understood... and i did not realise that, till now.
i'm trying to rebuild, with whatever i can salvage from the debris that remains from the past four years... good knows how many more months till i begin believing in love again... how many months, till i am able to look into his eyes and feel- something, anything... but, like i said, i'm a survivor, i'll survive...
yes, i shall be robbed of a few dreams, and what i though was the past shall haunt me... but i guess "fresh starts" are again limited merely to movies. even through the tears, i wish i could forget him somehow, and start afresh, in the true sense... love each expression on his face, enjoy the warmth of his body, without having pangs of pain shoot through my heart...
to err is human, they say, and we, as individuals have "erred" more than what can be counted. and each memory, remains fresh, with the pain that comes with it... i would like my memory to be rased, so i don't remember the past and then, i would love to meet him once more, at 6 in the morning, at howrah station, and take all back to the start. what i would not give for it...
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
love? chapter 2
scribbled by loony girl at 2:17:00 PM
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**hug**
and it'll all be okay. let's go have icecream someday.
stop this! seriously! u hav your fuckin exams! you don't need to b so masochistic! things r fine. u'll get over the pain. what matters is that u 2 are 2gthr. wipe those tears away. NOW!
just one thing to say
"things that hurt instruct"
hmmm.... :-I
Well a surivor is a really good thing to be, and ofcourse nothing is permenant but change, and about startign afresh, its in the mind, if u think u can, u can.
[i now wish i had survived, actualy maybe not, but the first lil problem and i ran into a happy without u
(not so happy really) Breakup.]
amen :)
if, **hug** right back!
and i hope so..and, yes...please...lets! and also to oly :P exams gettin over on the 30th for me..wen r urs endin?
deep, shut up! you are not even in india. people without blogs do not post comments! go feed rabbits or sumthing. do u not realise, its not only about "havin each other"?! and u claim to b chuddy buddy! die!
abhishek saini, i guess... you never stop learnin till you breathe your last.
vidya, only another woman understands. i wish "eternal sunshine of the spotless mind" was for real... :-|
inder, to you too :-)
Why the fuck do you even need to compare the 'real' and 'reel' life?
About rest, its all a matter of perception girl. A mere illusion.
"Think->Re-think->Re-re-think"
What has changed? Its YOU! Ask yourself. Remember, the only person who can answer our question is OURSELVES. Coz the truth always exists at the back of our mind, even though we may always put it on a standby mode.
And by saying I'll survive, wont make you any bond. You're not meant to survive in it, this ain't no doltish game. You need to LIVE and NOT merely survive in a relationship. Arrange these words in the brain cells till time ends.
And yes thanks a trillion for your heartily warm wishes. I already feel 'quite' fucked up!
(Gawd! If you're listening. Pliss pliss cure her ASAP!) :|
sutta, its good to see other souls gettin fucked up too! especially those who dun like ass- r k"!
n still no tag! hmmmph!
awwww........!!!
But the last line is so perfect!
guess.... teh ones who really blv in luv r the ones who get jacked easily!! nobody's fault but ours dat we built castles in the air... anywyz... its a fucked up time period i guess for most... let's c if the sails survive for the ship to sail thru the storm!!
btw, somehow have been humming this song for a couple of days... knowing me, knowing you - abba
listen to it, if u get a copy!!
moolah, wish other things were perfect too!!!
sam, lol! so r u one of the jacked souls? and ya, hav heard the song..have it as well... bt recently am goin crazy over annie lennox. i love her voice!
I likess ASS-RK. OKAY!
And jao I'm not doing the TAG.
Curse more. :|
The celerity of this post tells me you are on your way to 'recovery road'. All the Luck!
sutta, :( bt mad goat b waitin to rape u... be a teeny tiny bit scared?
what's in a name, it all depends on with wat alacrity the mind and the heart works... so it's a process, and i shall live through. :)
Some 'synonymous' thoughts there for sure. :D
yup... and i'm still singing!! :)
what's in a name?, i hate sems! very, very much!
sam, poor u, fr being jacked! and u shud listen to annie lennox.
grrrrrrrrrr
how very very undwagon like..
sheesh
i agree with riya. ding-a-ling would be ashamed of you now! especially wen she'll know u r on the phone RIGHT now, coochie cooing with the "significant v"!
riya, i am back to dwagoney self, fluttering around, nw tht i've realized tht i hav wings! :P
deep, like i keep tellin u, GO DIE! at least choke on cola for one whole minute! :D
At least u got another shot. Lucky you. Don't let anything botch it.
sir rekaf, i am tryin, i am tryin i sure am tryin :)
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